I feel distressed seeing a good friend of mine changing perspective of us and leaving with someone i do not favor.

What is the point of wearing on a smile when i am not someone who can do that right at this moment?

I feel so frustrated with myself.

I don't like being someone i am not,i just wanted to be straight.

I once heard of this "The man who has no problems is out of the game," as for me,i choose to be out of the game.
It is always better to be what i am,rather than having double faces.